March 2012
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February 2012
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He more than made up for it with a perfect day!
The boy came to my home late; was alil annoyed by then. Opened the boot on his urging and saw a bouquet of pretty pink roses surrounded by coloured heart shaped balloons! Awww!
The boy was bz blowing the balloons when i called to hurry him. Anyway, we made our way to maxwell to get food for the grandmother. ;))
Managed somehow due to his...
All that effort for nothing. Whats new.
I’m losing myself. Don’t know what I’m doing anymore. With work, with my life…
I might as well not be living, really. I know, what a thing to say when some people are fighting for their lives. I know, this wouldn’t be the kind of life i would want to be living if I didn’t have the health that I have now. I know, I ought to be more grateful and have a greater...
January 2012
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bye 2011, hello 2012
2011. The year where work stayed status quo. The year aunt j passed away. The year I started feeling really ambivalent about staying alone and being independent. Suddenly, it wasn’t fun anymore. 2011, the year where the Ps finally came home after 2.5 years away. Now, its no longer life alone.
2011, the year I went to cambodia, one of the best trips overseas so far. :)
Also headed to BKK...
December 2011
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My heart is so heavy presently.
I have not written in a while. For why should I? I have been taking things for granted; taking things into my own hands, playing God.
My grandiose dreams of being happy, somewhat bruised. Or is it, often bruised?
I don’t know if it is me. It must be me. It must be the way something is always wrong with me.
I love too much, too deeply, am too possessive. Or...
November 2011
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i’m searching for something, but i don’t know what it is.
a sign, a guide, telling me its okay to go this way, or that.
i’m constantly living in the expectations and ‘rules’ of others - afraid of what they may think, or if what i’m doing is wrong. i can’t be completely happy simply because i have no faith that what i’m doing is right.
if i’m...
October 2011
15 posts
“People’s memories are maybe the fuel they burn to stay alive. Whether those...”
– Haruki Murakami (After Dark)
i want to always be holding your hand, under the umbrella, in the rain.
“Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as...”
– Oscar Wilde (via letterstobabies)
I don’t want to be without you.
As much as I want you here, I know it isn’t my place to hope that it will be.
Thank you, for Sunday, 09.10.11, for that amazing day.
Just felt like, finally, it was such a dream. :)
From you, filling up my details on the white card for me, to paying for every single thing I needed to get, to getting similar phone covers, getting food for me, for...
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be tr…apped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
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why
is loving you not enough to make things work
do prayers seem to bounce off walls
am i so faithless
do i have so little faith that God will bring me through
does it hurt knowing that perhaps, i’m just caring for you more than you do for me
is it painful, feeling like you’re not good enough, or special enough.
are you not fighting for me.
am i fighting to keep you.
is nothing i...
September 2011
33 posts
have you ever read something that killed you...
like a text message or someone’s status. everything was going fine until you accidentally came across something you didn’t want to read. or found out something you were better off not knowing. it’s almost as if it was posted just to purposely hurt you. but you constantly read it over and over again to torture yourself. it’s horrible how one little thing can ruin your whole day.
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I feel so tired and discouraged lately. very physically tired out/drained/too many commitments/toomanyresponsibilities/too much to do.
Discouraged - tried asking A to church for the first time, and its so DIFFICULT. and it kinda strains things I feel, when he doesnt give straight answers.
Perhaps I expected him to be more forthcoming since he has been so enthusiastic about meeting church bros n...
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Tired. Really Tired. And we’re all messed up people, in dire need for something more…
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